My test anxiety is pretty amazing. If you think that you get nervous during a test, you should watch me dry heave my way through multiple choice. I’m not trying to brag or anything, but I wouldn’t be surprise if I blacked out while filling out a blue book.
This whole first week is, in all likelihood, not as bad as I’m making it out to be. In fact, I am probably making it much harder than it needs to be. I have a tendency to lose the forest for the trees and they sure are introducing me to a lot of trees.
I know now what two classes I’ll be teaching. This week I am learning these two classes well enough that when I go into work on Monday the kids will be under the impression that I know what I’m doing. Ha! Poor fools.
There is a lot of information and a lot of uncertainty. The company has a we’ll tell you when you need to know policy on information. As I mentioned before, I do not do well with anticipation. I really don’t do well with anticipation while being tested on 8th grade grammar.
The good news is, I’m in South Korea! It is far better than anything I could have psyched myself up for at home. So while I am freaking out, I can go to my favorite cafe and get a bowl of noodles and chill out.
The thing of it is, not everyone passes training. If you don’t pass, you go home and pay for your plane ticket. It’s not ideal. But, truth be known, I’ll pass. I’ll be fine. They are looking for enthusiasm and energy which I have in spades. You want bubbly? Oh I’ll give you bubbly. I can teach your grandma to be bubbly.
I just have to get through three more days of testing and studying and pressure and not knowing where I’m going on Friday night. Three days ain’t so bad. I’ll just enjoy the delicious food and the sweet hotel room with the heated floors.
I had heard tell that this first week is rough. It’s not as bad as the horror stories on-line make it out to be. I just need to calm down and breath consciously and take it all one step at a time.
If I could stop being such a big baby who needs to breath into a paper bag everytime she hears the phrase “pencils down” this might just be fun.